Harder, Longer, Bigger – Website For Men

I had a little giggle to myself today. I was sent a link to harderlongerbigger.com from a friend of mine. I won’t disclose his/her name, because the site they were browsing was of a sexual nature. Nothing perverse mind you!

It is basically a site aimed at men to help them win the love department – pills, lotions, creams, supplements and devices which can do stuff to “improve their sex life”.

The stuff reviewed on the site is said to help the male organ become longer, bigger and harder. Excercises to improve your stamina in the bedroom, techniques to improve your between the sheet skills and such.

Yet, after a 5-10 minutes, I realized I should’nt have been giggling at the products or my friend which had visted this site.

The site does actually have a serious angle, it is all to do with dealing with erectile dysfunction, sexual anxiety and confidence. Let’s face it. It’s not just us girls which have hang-ups over our body (bum, legs, boobs etc), it can effect guys too.

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What do you do?

I have been dealing with a lot lately and it seems to have gone unnoticed. I think years of conditioning so that I dont show as much as I feel is hurting me more than it ever helped.
My nerves are shot. I recently just met my real father for the first time since I was like five and it was better than expected but just as awkward as expected. We.are working on a relationship but the entire thing before hand had me going through a lot of anxiety and then I have been dealing with other personal crap that is also a very recent source but a large piece of my anxiety issues. I am having a hard time dealing with the recent development and I just don’t know how to deal with it. I just honestly have no idea what to think or do a dynamic has changed I never thought would happen but I feel the weight of a previous situation is coming back and I don’t know how to deal with it.
There is so much that I dealt with in the past that I get nervous it is heading down a similar path. Not the absolute same path but there is a fine line that I am having issues that I won’t be able to tell the difference.

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In your eyeball!

Okay so I understand that life sometimes gives  you lemons, okay I get that. I also get that when you get said lemons sometimes the best thing you can do with them is to cut them and then squeeze the juice into someones eye.

The proverbial eye was mine. Eric and I went over to a now ex friends house of mine last night and shit hit the fan. Aside from the fact that she went crazy and embarassed the crap out of me no we just can’t stop there. We continue on and go into trying to break us up because we have to paint the amanda is a whore picture.

I really don’t get why it always comes down to that but I told this story about the “guys like water” and the “brings strange men around my daughter” to someone who knows me since I was 15 and knows me damn near better than anyone on the face of earth and all they could do was crack up laughing saying “you? seriously…you?”

So yeah I can’t foresee the future and say if anything has been strained but I do know that a friendship has been ended and 24 hours later no apology was issued. I don’t want or need one however, it should still have been issued. That would have been the right thing to do.

Life often changes and you may not like the changes that come but you need to accept them and when someone is happy and healthy you support them you don’t try to take that away from them.

That is how I learned my lesson I saw coming a while ago but still it would have been nice to avoid the blow out the way it happened. However, I don’t think the finality of the situation would have been as extreme so I take the lemons and I squeeze them in your eye since remember….shit rolls down hill bitches :p

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Continuously Moving

I have been doing so much since I got this website back up and running. Jenny is building me a new layout to go with what my goal is for this website so I cannot wait. I’ll also be doing more stuff with it soon I just have so much on my plate for Pajama Mommy it isn’t even funny.

Stefanie is redoing the index page, and once that is done I’ll be redoing the entire categories along with merging the entire site back onto the index page and getting rid of the sub domains. So that is a lot of stuff I just have been like wowzers with it all.

Nick and I are no longer together. I called things off. He was an absolute great guy but he wasn’t the guy for me. I know he’ll find someone who will make him happy I just knew in the end I couldn’t.  I have just too much much going on for me to focus on being in a relationship on top of it all plus just the funk I’ve been in doesn’t help anything.

I’ve started doing a lot of stuff for myself lately. I’ve been cleaning out my closet and working slowly on the the things I’ve needed to handle it is just so much for one person but I have taken a nice deep breath let it out and know it will all work out in the end the way it is suppose to.

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All Work No Play

I have been a busy busy girl. I’ve been working my butt off at my new job. It is a good job, a little boring most of the day but still not a bad job and one that I’m very grateful to have. Along with having a spot of a cold, and then having to do all Pajama Mommy work its been like wow.

I’ve managed to make sure I do all my Pajama Mommy work this weekend. I really should have done it during the week it is just so hard getting used to a new schedule once I am I’ll be back in shape in no time for all the work. Plus I want to introduce a new exercise schedule into the mix so hopefully I can figure out something I have a few pieces of machinery at home I might as well make full advantage of it all. Plus as a boring note yes I’ve been catching up on all of my reading. Ugh there were so many books that are so fantabulous and some that are just pish posh not at all worth reading. I really wish good reads allowed you to give half stars. I’m struggling through this book I am deep in the series I just feel the author went really poor on this one. Just too much crap and not enough goods in it. I might be getting away from this genre and poking into a new one anyways it could be that but with me you never know? As of right now I am struggling to make it through the book. I started it this morning and would have had it finished by now but ugh I am only 2/3?s of the way through it. I won’t even be finishing it to night. I am so ashamed of myself. I am trying to get through most of these books that have been on my list for me to read for ages so I can finally freshen up my currently reading list. I’ve managed to get it from 65 to like 25 but still I would like it to be at zero and start fresh!

I also will be cleaning out my closet and book collection this weekend besides all my Pajama Mommy work. So this will be a long boring weekend.

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Start A New Job Tuesday

I start a new job Tuesday. I quit my old job for other reasons that I won’t say because it is just very rude to talk ill about people so I’ll leave that be. I’ve been out of a job since July 13th and been living on fumes basically financially and am finally now a regular person with a regular job. This job is something new I get to wear scrubs. I’ll be a receptionist at a very busy dermatologists office. They do everything there from regular stuff, to botox, laser hair removal, surgery etc. So it is going to be fun. I went with Donna yesterday to buy scrubs from Wal-Mart. I bought 3 tops and three bottoms.

On a side note I’ve joined . I am excited to be a member of it! It’s great because it gets reset every friday. I think it is perfect. Great meme idea Jenny.

I should come up with a meme. I WANT MY OWN MEME JENNY!!!

This Weekends To Do List

  1. Get my hair cut! – I saved $23 by scheduling a wet cut (coming in with my hair wet and not having them blow dry and style it)
  2. Get my nails done – I enjoy having my nails done. I switched to pink and whites and saved a lot. I have them fill in the whites thicker and only get pink fills for like 4 fills. Saving me an extra $52 a year or more depending on where I go!
  3. Eyebrow Waxing – I know I know I could save if I pluck. However its my splurge once every 6 weeks to spend $7 on my eyebrows getting waxed.
  4. Clean out my car – I pay for my nieces cellphone bill at $50 a month so she will be doing a very, very in depth car cleaning that I’ve been meaning to do on the inside of my car. A full detailing once or twice a month ;) to work off her cellphone bill I’ve paid a few times and will be paying for apparently until she is allowed to get a job.
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In Pain From BlogHER

So I spent Saturday in New York City just a short jaunt from my own home, at the BlogHER conference representing Pajama Mommy Community. I enjoyed meeting a few bloggers there, along with meeting all sorts of great PR people and meeting those I’ve worked with in the past. I met up with Sheena who is too cute in person for words. I was thrilled with all the fun I had and the stuff I got. Granted by the time 4pm rolled around I just wanted to go home. I was tired and cranky, drained, my brain was slowly becoming mush. It just was so much better for me to just go home and call it a night.

I knew it wasn’t going to be that great of a day when my train showed up late. I got into the city about 45 minutes late, and about another half hour until I walked the 20 city blocks from 33rd to 53rd. Aka from Penn Station to the Hilton Hotel. Oh it was a fun walk too. I called the Hilton and I had to say they weren’t the most helpful people on the phone they made assumptions and gave me horrendous directions that I had to call back two more times and finally get rude with the lady just for her to listen. I called up the fist woman and I said I’m walking on 6th and I’m trying to figure out where you are she doesn’t know where on sixth I am and tells me to go straight. I end up on 5th avenue that way. So I call again and I am like I am trying to find you and another woman tells me just go straight until the numbers get bigger. I’m like straight is vague and I need something more than that. She is like you can only go one way on Sixth Ave, all snotty to me. I was like listen lady, I can go any where I want to since I AM WALKING I just need to know which way to go on Sixth Ave. To which she is like well follow the traffic. I am like if it was that simple you should have said that in the beginning instead of making assumptions and not trying to help me a consumer at your business.

So I hung up on her. I don’t like rude people.

The staff at blogHER were so nice and friendly, the PR people were great. The few bloggers I spoke to were so nice. The rest well as a group I was hoping people were over all nicer. But I found that several other people I spoke to seemed to get snubbed by a lot of bloggers there for no reason. This is a meet and greet and a lot of times when you say hello to someone people just snubbed you. I was very appalled at that behavior. No one wanted to actually meet and connect with other bloggers. This whole thing is not just about meeting PR its about social networking. One of the best things you can do is talk to other  bloggers. There are times where I have PR contacts others want and vice versa and we share because I find that when you are greedy it just is rude and tends to turn people away. There is nothing wrong with sharing, there is enough out there for everyone.

Please don’t think I am ungrateful or anything. I spoke to several bloggers there who felt the same way every time they went to socialize and network they were getting snubbed. I personally think this is a chance not only to meet other bloggers but other readers. I’m very quiet so when I ate breakfast I just sat there quietly and spoke very little. Not that I am unapproachable I just was soaking it all in. I socialized but it seemed I chose a table where more people knew each other and not that they made me feel out of place since they were very friendly I was just tired from my walk. I just think even during the meet and greet sessions people were using blogher for just PR contacts and I wanted to meet other bloggers and I found so many people felt that way so I hope when I attend next year it’ll be even better. The event was great, I just hoped to find more people to talk to next time around :)

Over all it was a great experience I believe I will be attending next years even if it isn’t local. I should have been going to this far earlier. I am such a slacker.

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